If this is true, then it comes and goes. Because I think he had hope after
Hence the "he's prone to"... But he's still in this place where he needs a kick in the pants to pull himself out of his funks - Darla forcing him to choose to kill or save the baby, Whistler telling him he can either be a hero or an even more useless waste, etc...
I happen to like your analysis. It's not so much that he has "too much guilt" as though such a thing is quantifiable. More accurately, as you note, the problem is how he deals with his guilt.
He seems to believe in a false dichotomy whereby he's either an angel or a monster.
I'd agree. If on the one hand, he can never make up for past wrongs, then on the other, his wrongs don't negate the good work he's been doing to overcome that past. That understanding that, even as he strives for "the good", life is found in the spaces between champion and devil.
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Re: He's no angel. No devil, either
Hence the "he's prone to"... But he's still in this place where he needs a kick in the pants to pull himself out of his funks - Darla forcing him to choose to kill or save the baby, Whistler telling him he can either be a hero or an even more useless waste, etc...
I happen to like your analysis. It's not so much that he has "too much guilt" as though such a thing is quantifiable. More accurately, as you note, the problem is how he deals with his guilt.
He seems to believe in a false dichotomy whereby he's either an angel or a monster.
I'd agree. If on the one hand, he can never make up for past wrongs, then on the other, his wrongs don't negate the good work he's been doing to overcome that past. That understanding that, even as he strives for "the good", life is found in the spaces between champion and devil.